Inspirational Quotes and Stories

A few hours ago I had my first hypnosis class using the Quantum Hypnosis method by Dolores Cannon.  I came to China for a class held by Dolores to learn how to do perform these techniques as a hypnotist.

Then all the students went off and tried this method.  I must say I had the most interesting experience.

Here is a little “background”.

A month ago, something strange happened to me, I suddenly decided to stop eating meat.  Not because I didn’t like meat.  I just suddenly had this idea planted in my mind.  At the time, I was dealing with some physical health problems.  There was nothing major.  If I was to go to the doctor, they probably wouldn’t think it is much of a deal and if they really want to look useful, would have prescribed some medications for me.  I just remember looking at a piece of bacon and suddenly feel like not touching it at all.  I was already started to be sensitive to rice and wheat.  So, there was very little I could eat besides fruits and vegetables.  I immediately decided to look on Amazon to see if there was any books I can find on the subject.  I came across the raw food community. I started reading all I could about the where I can get the protein and vitamins that I need to sustain my body.

What I found out was interesting.  There is just as much protein in leafy green vegetables as meat.  So, I knew I had to eat copious amounts of leafy green vegetables and fruits.

Now, I subscribe to the belief that physical ailments has its problem source in our subconscious.  If we can get at the source of the problem, we would be healthy and vibrant.  This is why hypnotism works.  The process of hypnotism gets an individual into the level of his / her subconscious and work on the source of the any problem and hopefully take them away and heal the body.

I was in a group of three people.  There was another two individuals working with me in our little group of three, let’s call them Jane and Dave.  We have made a draw and Dave was the one who was supposed to be working with me.  When we started, Dave asked me to lay down to begin the interview.  I told him I didn’t want to lay down and he said to me, “Well, when you are ready to get started, you will lay down”.  I told him, I don’t think you care about me, you are not listening to me, you are trying to make me do what you want me to do.  I started crying.  This was just about the worse situation you can start a hypnotism session, with the client not trusting the therapist.  I just felt that he had his little box he had created to fit life in.  Anything that didn’t fit in the box, is not possible.  I kept crying and crying and I felt such strong emotions coming from my heart.  Jane and Dave asked me if I wanted to continue.  I sat there on the bed and looked inside my heart and I knew I needed to do this.  Dave needed to do this.  I always face my challenges straight on, especially those in the area of personal and spiritual development.  I knew in my heart this would be an opportunity for all of us to learn.  I felt something big was really pulsing behind my heart, waiting to get out.  I mean, here I am crying before the hypnotism session even started!

Dave tried to induce me by following the script.  When we come upon the second available time to visualize something he asked me to visualize something and describe it back to him (I am not saying what he is asking me to do because I wanted to protect Dolores and not to disclose her technique), I was seeing these particles of bright blue, indigo coloured light crisscrossing each other.  If you have ever watched Star Trek, you may have an idea on what I am talking about.  it is like a million particles of zigzagging blue light particles and it was the most beautiful place I have ever seen.  I no longer wanted to leave.  I was beginning to cry, tears were coming down my face. I can feel my eye muscles twitching about in what seemed like a million movements a second, if my classmates could have seen my eyes, they could have seen my eyelids moving so fast. When Dave tried to continue on the script and restricted me from looking at this most beautiful scene I have ever seen, I stopped cooperating with him and I just felt like I needed to go to the bathroom.  Dave was not happy that my behaviour did not fit the mold of what was supposed to happen in hypnotism class.  I knew in my heart, this was something I really needed to see.

Dave ended the session abruptly by telling me to stop and open my eyes.  It took me a long time to open my eyes.  I almost couldn’t open them and that showed how deep in trance I went in a very short period of time.  The information was ready to pour out of me.  I think the Source had its wisdom of letting Dave try first because had he not gone through this process, he would not be the kind of awesome hypnotist he will become.  This situation was placed here for him to learn.

Then we tried again and I no longer was able to visualize and I started coughing a lot.  The smell of cigarette smoke was starting to come off the vent in the room and I started to become very sensitive to that.  We finally decided to stop all together.  By then, Dave had already tried twice.  In his hypnotism practice so far, he has never had a client that didn’t go down peacefully and say all the things he had expected them to say.  I also felt like going to the bathroom again but I didn’t even drink that much water! By this time, I had gone to the bathroom twice in the last 30 minutes and still feeling like I wasn’t done with the bathroom.

I remember sitting on the bed and wondering if we should continue.  My other teammate SJane, however, seemed to feel like we are up to something here.  She suggested we should try again with her as my hypnotist.  I agreed but I told her we must change a room because the energy was not right there.

So we moved over to my room and I began to get myself comfortable.  Dave had been having a cold this week and he said he was going to retire to his room, but Jane asked him to stay with her and help her in case she went into any trouble.

The induction went beautifully this time, I went along with Jane and cooperated with the best of my abilities.  I didn’t feel any resistance or expectations from Jane and I felt good with her.

When I came into the first scene I started seeing asteroids around a bright star.  I didn’t want to stand on Earth.  I just wanted to go into space. When I was asked to describe myself, I saw myself as a blue entity, blue energy entity.  I had no body, I was light.

When Jane asked me what I was doing, I saw myself zigzagging through the asteroids and flying about in the universe, just so free and playing around.  I began to cry, I remember how good it was to play like that. I missed it so much.  I just kept saying “Love, and Joy…Love and Joy”.

Jane then asked me, “do you hear anything to see anything?”

I responded, “I just hear a voice asking me to ‘Come’…”

I followed the request and float up to where the voice was coming from.  I came to a gathering place full of many energy entities.  The voice kept saying “Help Earth, help Earth, it’s in trouble, it’s in trouble…”

By this time I had started to sob uncontrollably.  There was so much emotion there I didn’t know where it was coming from.  I felt such sorrow.  I think I might have scared Jane a bit with how much crying I was doing.  She ended up moving me quickly from that scene.

The next scene I came to I was a 5 year old girl on Earth in my present body known as May.  We were at a wedding party and I was trying “beer”.  At first it tasted very bitter, I remember all the adults around me laughing and smiling at me, encouraging me to drink more.  I was amazed to find out that the more I drank, the more I liked it and the better it stated.  Then I saw myself puking in the car on the way him with my mother yelling at me saying, “How could you do this to us?!”

Then Jane moved me to another scene and I saw myself on my wedding day.  I started crying because it was truly one of the most beautiful moments in my life.  We were all standing in the rose garden on top of Burnaby Mountain, my husband and I, and all our “friends”.  I saw myself there as an observer as well even though I was the main character for the wedding.  This was because not all of our “soul” or “energy” is in our physical bodies.  Most of the time, there are only parts of the energy in our physical bodies because the energy of the soul is so high that if it was to all come into the body, it would be like being hit by lightning!

I saw all my friends and their souls there too, floating about and dancing in the sky.  There was so much energy from all of our friends (now I see them in their energy forms and physical forms) their energy felt like a gust of wind that took all the rose pedals up with it and twirled them in a little rose pedal tornado.  Most of my friends saw the rose pedal tornado but I saw that I was too busy kissing my dear husband and signing the marriage certificate at the time and this happened for quite a while!  Interestingly, there were entities there that are my friends but no there in attendance physically.  I just knew they were there to celebrate this moment of intense love and joy with me.

After this scene, Jane called in the subconscious to asked some questions.  She asked the subsconscious why I was suddenly changing my diet and if the subconscious could fix the problem with frequent urination.  I began to feel the energy pouring through my body.  I had a massive headache but I remember opening up my grounding with a huge rush of energy.  My physical body was breathing in and out quickly through my mouth as this energy started to rush to the body.  My higher self told myself (that sounded like a bit of a tongue twister doesn’t) that I needed to open my grounding.  I am an energy conduit, my purpose here is to channel energy to earth from the universe to help it increase its vibrations.  In this life, I will be called to travel to many places on Earth.  Some of these places don’t always have very high energy.  I don’t see myself staying at one place for very long before going back to Vancouver to recharge.  There is good energy there…

I haven’t always been an energy conduit in it’s full capacity.  When I was a little girl, I was always sick and was not very big when I was born.  My energy could not have come in all at once.  There were several points in which my energy increased in my life.  The energy increases comes in as bursts of energy.  The first time was when I was 5.  I remember looking up in the sky and asking “Why am I May?”.  I got a little answer there but I always feel kind of sad.  The second time when I first when to Canada when I was 12.  When I went to Canada I started hearing this clicking sound my ear.  Click…Click…Click…This is especially so when the wind blows.  This was because my Higher Self was trying to talk to me.  I shouldn’t have any problems with the ear clicking anymore.  Any time I have clicking in the ear, I know I am being “talked to”.  Hopefully from now on, I will understand it as more than “clicking”.

The third time this happened to me was shortly after I met my husband.  He told me how he really liked this movie called “Punch Drunk Love” by Adam Sandler.  So we decided to give this movie a try.  I remember the beginning of the movie was kind of dull, just this guy going about his boring life.  I just remember the movie to be very “blue”.  Whatever the director did made the light in the movie seem awfully blue all the time.  Within 10 minutes into the movie I couldn’t watch it anymore.  I just had to stop and lay down on the bed.  I felt dizzy all over.  Then, for no reason what so ever, I started feel a sharp pain in my left arm and this pain pinned me to to the bed.  I started to feel a sharp pain in my left leg and I could no longer move.  I remember crying and scaring the hell out of my husband.  I laid there in that state for what seemed like 45 minutes.  By the time I could get up, I walked to the mirror and saw a different set of eyes looking at me.  I was kind of scared.  I thought I had been possessed.  I called my dad and told him about this incident and he went to a Taiwanese psychic who communicates with the higher consciousness.  He told my dad that this was my Higher Self showing up and entering the body and that there is nothing to worry.  In fact, he told my dad that I will no longer need to see psychics because I will have a high enough energy to get whatever I wanted.

I see go to see psychics time to time because my ego gets in the way and I succumbed to feeling fearful about life.  After this session, I realized they have not always been right.  They didn’t get the full picture.  I mean, how could they?

As Jane continued to talk to my subconscious, I continue to breathe heavily.  I was told that the reason why my diet changed was because in order to be a true energy conduit and bring in a large amount of energy, I had to make my body lighter and more efficient.  Biological efficiency is important in fostering energy transfer because the energy need to be able to move straight through me.  Most of the time, the body is bogged down from trying to digest food that is more difficult to digest.  People become tired and groggy and even depressed.  We have no idea how much energy it takes to simply digest certain foods.  By eating foods that can be digested within 30 minutes to an hour, this will free up more time for the body to be at its maximum capacity.

Most of my dietary changes happened because it was kind of force upon me.  This started to occur after my pregnancies.  Both of my kids have food allergies of some kind.  And now I know that they are also energy conduits.  In fact, they should be eating foods that are easy to digest too!  Maybe this is why I get the feeling they are my equal and that they will not stay by my side after they grow up.  They will be called to different places around the world to spread the energy.

This is is why I will never be ‘healed’ from the so called ‘digestive problems’.  It is a choice I made before I even came here.  I am simply living up to my purpose now.  I am living it up!

I also asked about my mother.  For those of you who know me, my mother has been a challenge in my life for a long time.  She is manipulative in every way and she insists that I must support her survival by providing for her financially.  My ego has a really big problem with my mother because it feels unsafe around her.  But in actual fact, my mother is an energy conduit that has ‘malfunctioned’.  The malfunctioning of energy conduits occur frequently.  In fact, not all energy conduits will reach its full potential as energy conduits.  This is why so many must be sent to Earth.  The first number that comes to mind is about 50,000.  It seems like a lot but it is not a lot in the sea of billions of people who currently occupies the planet.  To top that off, no all of them will survive the density of the Earth’s plane.  Energy Conduits are full of Love, but they are also easily affect by low vibrations.  Especially during early days of childhood.  During childhood, the body is still too small to handle the energy that has to be channeled and the pure souls can be easily affected by the sorrow and fear on the Earth’s three dimensional plane.  Many of them ended up having traumatic childhoods and become depressed.  Some were in environments that are very low in vibration and they ‘forget’ why they have come.  The ‘term’ career may have little meaning to energy conduits, since their main purpose is to channel energy and sometimes messages.  This is why many of them have problems with working for other people.  They have to insert themselves into an environment created by someone else.  It became clear to me in this session as my Higher Self told me that I will have to set up my own office to work in.  I cannot go to someone else’s office to work or work for someone else.  I must be the boss.  As the boss, I get to insert my own high energy in it and control my environment.  I am confident that if this is what is being done, an energy conduit such as myself will have success in any field I choose.  Those who partner with energy conduits and allowing them to be the main decision maker will have abundance.  No question about that.

My mother is an energy conduit that “went wrong”.  She started out as an energy conduit.  But the environment she grew up in battered her in many ways.  She began to lower her vibration to fear and negativity.  I saw that this particular conduit would like to leave and start over.  I could not see a time line for this at all.  There may be a possibility to reignite her.  She has been living in my house for the last month and I have introduced her to the idea of not eating meat.  If she can give up milk too, she may be able to spare enough physical energy to get the energy flowing again.  But currently, I do not see that happening.  But because the future is not set and stone and I see no time line, I can only assume that I will support her until her Higher Self makes a decision about staying or leaving.  Currently it is thinking more about leaving.  It is so frustrated in that body.

This is what happens with many physical symptoms.  My higher self had said that the reason why I had to go to the bathroom so often is because I was not grounding.  Imagining  an energy conduit that has a build up of “pressure” and the energy is not flowing through.  So after the session, even though I went into the session feeling like going to the bathroom, after the session, I no longer have that feeling.

At the end of the session, Jane asked if my subconscious had anything more to say, and it started telling Dave things Dave really needed to hear.  So much so, that Dave was sobbing uncontrollably and had to leave the room soon after the session was over.  Dave really had to be there in the room this time… :P

Another interesting thing that happened during the session was that my therapist Jane, also had her back cracked in the mid back area by turning the body slightly.  A famous Chiropractor in China and Hong Kong had been trying to crack her back at that spot with no luck.  It seemed like the “energy” I have channeled through the session no only healed me, it also healed everyone else in the room.

My homework now is that I will have to do an hour of grounding / channeling every day.  If I don’t, I will begin to experience some physical symptoms from the huge amount of energy being stuck in my body.  This can be done through simple meditation or writing without my glasses on (which is what I am doing now).  Surprisingly, while it is slightly blurry, I can see every word I am typing.  YAY!  I also saw that I can do this as a profession — being a professional writer.  We’ll see how that pan out…

Update

The next day we were to share our experience with Dolores.  Our group presented our case and Dolores kept nodding her head and telling me that she knew exactly what I was.  Then she said that I came straight from the Source, from God. (she was very excited) This was a big surprise to me because I thought I had past lives from other hypnotism sessions.  She just looked at me and said, “no you haven’t, they were imprints”.  Imprinting happens when a pure soul is being sent to Earth.  If it has no experience on Earth it may not survive the negative there without past experiences like past lives.  So, many different lives are imprinted on to the soul as a framework to work from when souls come straight from the source.  This is why during the hypnotism session, I did not go to a past life when the hypnotist asked me to do so, I went to the present life as May.  It was a huge revelation.  They sure do a good job with that imprinting stuff. When my subconscious / higher self came in, it also healed my hypnosist’s mid back and the student observer’s emotional scars.

My ONLY purpose here is to be an energy conduit.  From now on, I can channel information and ground the energy from Source.  If I don’t, I get massive headaches and I would feel like I have to go to the bathroom all the time.  Going to the bathroom is like a way of grounding the energy.  But it is not as good as “just grounding the energy” I used to get the headache a lot ever since 4 weeks ago (I think I must have been preparing my body for this course so that I can be at maximum vibrational capacity (if that makes any sense).  Now, it is kind of cool to just heal myself from a headache instantaneously.

The subconscious from several other students passed a message to everyone in the class. They said it was not a coincidence that we were brought together.  We were there for a very important reason and mission. They said there was 10 people in a room of 67 that had enough energy that the gathering of these 10 people raised the vibration of every being within a 200km radius from the site.  This is a very big responsibility, if we do not live up to this purpose / mission, the power will be taken away and given to someone else.  They were so powerful with these words.  I think these are referring to those who did not come from Source.  They said this high energy will remain for another 3 months even after we leave, then it will start to dissipate.  Action must be taken to awake as many people as possible during this time period.  Interestingly enough, I am leaving Asia in 3 months…

I got this as a message that I was trying to tell Dolores that there are only about 50,000 energy conduits who have reached their FULL potential.  Not all who come from Source can be successful conduits.  They may be eating things that takes up too much energy from the physical body to digest and therefore are currently poor conductors of energy.  They will find they will have a lot of physical problems.  Dolores told me that “they” said hundreds and thousands have come.  But I really get the message that energy conduits must purify their body to conduct energy, otherwise, they will be depressed because they are not serving their purpose.  Some energy conduits may not have been imprinted enough information to survive the harshness of this dense environment and they have lost their way.  Some can be brought back to their path but some are so far off that they will return to Source soon and perhaps start again.

I didn’t get to talk to everyone but at least 7 other people came to me. This one man who is in his 50′s came to me crying, saying that when he went under during his practice session with the classmates, he just keep seeing me.  He realized I was very important so he came to see me right at the beginning of the class next day, asking why he kept seeing me.  I told him that by the time the morning has ended he will know.

Good that this other group had said that there were 10 of us in the room otherwise people would think I AM God.  Dolores said this has never happened before.  We are just level one students who just took the course and she had never taught us how to deal with the Source coming through during a session.  She said she better explain more to us because something that didn’t happen before was happening now, because the Source is coming through and the group was ready.  Maybe we are getting impatient as time is running short. It turned out that out of 10 of us, 3 had to be brought in from outside of China (Canada, Singapore, and Australia) and several had were brought from outside of Shanghai.

My other mission is to check up on and support other energy conduits.  The energy comes in a little at a time but before they have get to their “awakening” they are often very depressed.  The same kind of stories are true with all other conduits I have spoken to.  All went through a period of great depression they call them until a super awakening.  Even after the awakening, many still feel alone and not sure what to do with themselves.

I think it was well worth it to go to Shanghai.  I learned a lot about myself :P

I have been putting much energy into personal and spiritual development for the last 5 years.  Overall, I think I have transformed myself in many ways.  Here are some of the more visible transformations I can think of:

• I am less of a Drama Queen then I used to be.
• I can recognize when I am acting out of ego or from my true self
• I have fewer negative thoughts than I used to
• I am living a wonderful life with my husband and children

However, I can’t say that I am done with my work on personal and spiritual development. I have yet to pass the last obstacle of being truly self actualized:

That obstacle is: MY MOTHER

I have always had issues dealing with her.  I don’t want to get rambling on the “stories” I made up about her behavior.  All I can say is that all of the hell I experienced in my childhood came from her.  I must say that all the hell she put me through allowed me to draw from my own wisdom from an early age, being able to tell what is right and wrong.

Her presence will no doubt draw on some of the most dormant pain bodies I have.  She is coming to Taiwan in a few weeks and already I am fearing some of the possibilities of bad things happening.  The thought of her presence takes me out of my comfort zone immediately.

While I would love to give her all the responsibility of why I am not present, my wisdom tells me the answer to harmonious co-existence with my mother lies within.  Perhaps this is the very reason I should welcome her presence instead of fearing it.  What’s the point of doing all these personal and spiritual development courses when I can’t co-exist peacefully with my mother?  It is time to put some of my skills to work :P

Dear Cathy,

I was riding the scooter home after our talk together and I felt the urge to write you an email.  When I got home, I thought I would share my thoughts on my blog so that other people can also see this.

I want to take this opportunity to Thank “YOU” for changing my life.  You might find this surprising because you may have thought you were the one who told me today that “I” had change your life.  But the truth is, you have changed my life too.

Let me explain…

In a previous post, I have shared a hypnotism session I had with my friend Suzy.  In this session, I had revealed to myself my purpose in life (you can click on the link if you are interested).  While my purpose in life is to make a difference for others by just being myself, I rarely have confirmation that I have succeeded in carrying out my purpose.  Even if I had, I found it hard to accept.  Perhaps I had issues giving myself credit for making a difference for people.  When you told me, “I have changed / transformed because of you.” I was very touched, I felt a shiver from head to toe.  I was unable to share this with you at that moment because I couldn’t really understand what I was feeling, I didn’t understand enough to explain to you that something had happened inside me.

When I was riding home on my scooter, I had time to ground my energy and realizing that you had made my dreams come true: I made a difference in someone’s life.

Therefore, I need to acknowledge the difference YOU are making in my life.  You made my visit to Taiwan worthwhile.  I had almost forgotten about my purpose of coming to Asia and you reminded me of what I am here to do.

You had told me that some of your friends are interested in meeting me.  I realized that I was shying away from that request because I was not confident I can make a difference for them.  I thought perhaps I wouldn’t be able to meet their high expectations.  But I now know that was my ego talking, not me.

I feel a bit scared and out of my own element.  People ask me to teach them and I would tell them I don’t know what to teach, I don’t have any teaching materials…blah blah blah.  I had simply forgotten that just being myself was good enough.

Thank you Cathy :)

Today I took another step towards fulfilling my purpose here in Taiwan.  In my previous post, I spoke about facilitating my first little seminar on the topic of the law of attraction after showing the movie The Secret in my apartment complex.  I had initially feared that no one will show up but I have proven those fears to be unfounded.

When I first suggested playing The Secret in our shared movie theater, the secretary at my apartment complex told me attendance is usually very poor for movie showings.  This proved to be untrue today.  While there were some empty seats, the theater was quite full.  In fact, people kept coming in as the movie was playing and some had to sit in the very front row.  I even had requests of people wanting to borrow the movie after it had finished playing to watch it at home because they couldn’t make it to the 7:30 pm showing.

There were about 10 people at the little question and answer period after the movie.  I remember visualizing myself sitting with some like minded people and having a great chat and that was exactly what happened.  They wanted to me to join them in their book reading club and they will be reading “The Power of Now” starting Tuesday.  I remember telling Dobes that it is not teaching others about how to be happy, my role is to teach people how NOT to be unhappy by showing them the existence of their ego and pain bodies.

The universe shows me every step of my journey towards fulfilling my purpose in interesting and exciting ways.  I can’t wait to see what it will show me next :).

Today has been a philosophical day.  I started the day having breakfast with Dobes and talking about how time is not linear — how our past, present, and future coexist with each other in the present (this will have to be explained in another blog post).  Then I went to the mall and had lunch by myself.  While I was having lunch, I started listening to an audio book by Deepak Chopra called, “The Book of Secrets”, where he spoke about the relative importance of knowing your purpose in life and being happy.  Chopra asserted that knowing your purpose (and carrying it out) is a big part of being happy.  His suggested if we focus on being aware of ourselves, our bodies and our feelings, we will find our inner wisdom.

Then I was chatting with a woman in my community while our kids played with each other and she revealed to me that she feels empty because she doesn’t know what she should do with her life.

This made me think back to the days when I did not know my purpose.  I wandered aimlessly from one job to another, one academic area to another searching for my purpose.  Not many people are born knowing exactly why they are here.  I certainly did not have that clarity myself.  I found it hard to just be and accept my current reality at the time.   If I could travel back in time to give myself a piece of advice, I would tell myself to be present and keep my eyes and heart open for clues.

My higher self presented me with my purpose when I was 26.  I watched The Secret and attended the Landmark Forum.  I had embarked on my journey of personal and spiritual development.  At the time I had thought to myself, I wanted to teach in the field of personal development, but I really doubted my worth as a teacher.  I thought I had nothing to prove.  I didn’t have a man, I didn’t have a good job, I didn’t have any money.  I didn’t have anything I wanted so I thought I didn’t really qualify to be a teacher in the field of personal development.  It took me 5 years of manifesting things I wanted in my life for me to really believe in myself.

I suggested to this woman that she may want to consider paying more attention to her own feelings and synchronized events in her life.  I explained that this may be how God communicates with us.  She told me that she doesn’t want to toy around with things that are not scientific because she doesn’t want to be superstitious.

I remember feeling taken aback by her response.  Does she want to know her purpose in life or not? Does she really want to escape her current state of feeling empty with her life? Then I realized I was being judging and those thoughts stemmed from my ego and not my true loving higher self.  If I was to look at this situation without judgment, this woman had already begun her path of seeking her purpose.  She spoke about it to me, she was sitting there with me.  As a teacher it is up to me to be patient with her and be there to ask her questions and answer any questions she may have for me.   I am not there to judge how she thinks.

Next time, I will focus on what I am good at — Asking Questions.

A lot has happened since I last wrote a post, I have moved to Taiwan and settled here.  I have longed to come here for awhile now.  I think it must have been about a year ago when I started to have the idea of living in the Orient and now it has become a reality.  The question that continues to plague me on a daily basis is “why am I here?”  There must be a reason why I wanted to be here.

Deep down inside, I feel like I am here because people need to hear what I have to say.  I want to teach people about the law of attraction and how break free of their limiting beliefs.  I sometimes doubt myself and I would think, “Why me?  There are tons of great teachers around.” In these moments of doubt I would remind myself that there are simply not enough teachers around. Different types of students tend to be attracted to different types of teachers.  No matter what kind of students are out there, there will be some that will appreciate me!

I am sharpening my Mandarin in preparation for teaching people here.  I bought The Secret DVD in Chinese so I can learn how things are translated here.  I am playing this movie at the apartment complex I live in this coming Saturday and Sunday and holding a little gathering after the movie for anyone who has questions.

I must admit I feel a little bit scared that no one will show up. Maybe this is pure ego, I don’t want to look bad.  With this awareness I know that even if there was no one there I would not take it personally because it would have nothing to do with who I am or my success as a teacher in personal / spiritual development.  Anyone who has ever started something new may have once feared of failure.  A person starting a business may fear that there will be no customers, a teacher starting a class may fear that there will be no students.

If one person shows up, I will teach one person, if no one shows up, I will go home and teach my son and tell him a bed time story about attracting his favorite snacks :P

In preparation of my move to Taiwan, I made a preliminary “scouting” trip to Taiwan to find a place to live for my family before moving everyone over.  I will be living in the city of Taichung.

Accommodations

After 2 days of intense searching and looking at places to live, I have settled on a 4 bedroom apartment in downtown Taichung.  It is located right across from the municipal government of Taichung building and within walking distance to shopping and food.

The building has an official website: www.uptown.com.tw
It is a complex of 400 units that share some amenities together.  They seem to have a quite a community there and has a online photo album of pictures from community activities:

http://www.hometown.org.tw/blog/n23136757/blogAlbumAction.do?pagingType=1&maxRecord=8&recordCount=16&currentPage=2&method=doListAlbum

They also have some pictures of the amenities available:

http://www.hometown.org.tw/blog/n23136757/blogAlbumAction.do?method=doListAlbumImages&albumId=14360

Interior photos of the unit are available with the following link: http://rent.591.com.tw/rent-detail-869548.html

Initially when I visited the actual unit I was not sold on it.  It has four bedrooms and fully furnished with beds, but one of the bedrooms is small and does not have air conditioning.  Taiwan is a very hot place and air conditioning is a must.  I was going to leave without considering the unit because of the air conditioning issue.  Then as I was leaving, I asked if there were any amenities and the landlord took us to see the amenities and then I was SOLD!

I am really kicking myself for forgetting to take pictures of the amenities but maybe Dobes and kids will be pleasantly surprised when they see the amenities.  Here are some of the amenities available:

• Full size outdoor swimming pool
• Indoor kids play area complete with a two slides down to a ball pen full of balls (did I mention this is indoor and air conditioned?)
• Two banquet halls for holding parties
• Lots of lounges with comfy couches to hang out
• a Internet room for the kids
• A movie theater (I didn’t get to look inside because a movie was playing at the time) that plays different movies on a weekly basis for the community.
• A table tennis from for people to play pingpong when they wanted to
• An exercise room with hardwood floors and mirrors for practicing dancing / yoga
• A gym complete with excellent exercise equipments, treadmill, elliptical… and a panel of flat screen TVs to keep you entertained while you exercise
• Lots of SPACE for kids to run around in

I have yet to see a place with amenities as complete as this place and I know everyone in the family will enjoy these amenities.  Apparently the complex is home to many foreign professionals on assignment to Taiwan.  Those people usually get way bigger and luxurious units but they use the same amenities as we will.  This means the possibility of meeting people who may speak English and well educated professionals to converse with.

The landlord is also very nice to provide us with all the furniture we need and move away all the furniture we do not need.  This is hard to come by as I had met a lot of residence from the landlords when I requested that they remove the old beds in the apartments I have looked at.  Space is of the essence in Taiwan and most landlords will have no place to put the furniture.  I was happy that they were so cooperative and I look forward to have just mattresses on the floors so that the kids can sleep safely.

Drawbacks

As I had previously mentioned, there are some draw backs to this place.  One of which is the non-air conditioned office (a smaller room I thought would be perfect for Cedric).  To live there means that I will have to personally fork out the money to install the air-conditioning.  Something that will cost about $400 CAD.  But the amenities and the possible social interactions available in the building made me overlook the initial cost of installing air conditioning in one room.

Another draw back is that this place is not that close to the Kindergarten Dante will be attending.  It is about a 5 minute car ride away. However, I was told that each Kindergarten has a Kiddie Bus that goes around and picks up the kids in the morning and drop them off in the afternoon.  The Kiddie Bus is equipped with their own “teacher” on board.  I had initially thought of sending Cedric to part time daycare too but I think I will wait until he can board a Kiddie Bus on his own with his brother.

This building is located on a very busy street in Taichung.  It can be quite noisy and I am sure pollution may be an issue.  Gonna need those air filters I tell you…But I can honestly say that there is no quite city in Taiwan.  If we wanted to live somewhere quiet, we will need to live in the mountains.

There are not a lot of restaurants immediately outside of the building.  I saw only one place to take out food, but within walking distance (like one block away) there are all the things Dobes and I enjoy:

• Tempenyaki: Japanese hot plate stirfry
• Western food like steak and pasta
• The best and most posh foot spa in Taichung for acupressure foot massage and body massage
• A supermarket where we can shop for groceries
• There are also other food available like Japanese and other cuisines  I have yet to explore it all but I know there are all there.  Did I mention a Japanese hot stone hot pot place?
• 2 or 3 large blocks away (within 10 minutes walk) there is Tiger City, a shopping mall complete with the largest movie theater in Taiwan.  I know Dobes and I haven’t been going out to movies much since having kids, but with a movie theater within walking distance, I am sure movie watching will be possible again.

My main concerns

My main concerns about Taichung or Taiwan in general is the pollution.  Everyone here has this distinct look on their face where there are black freckles on their faces (especially around the cheek area) and their facial colour look a bit like grey ash.  Yes, sounds very scary but it is true.  I have been here for two days and already I can see areas of my face being affected by the pollution.  I will have to go for weekly facials that will hyper-oxygenate my face to see if I can avoid looking older than I actually am.  I am also having some kind of allergy on my skin, areas of red dots on my extremities (I guess those areas are more visible to me) which will go away if I take an anti-histamine (allergy medication).  This is one area that will make a permanent stay in Taiwan less desirable.  Despite the conveniences and good food, I know I will probably want to move back to Canada in about a year.  When I go back to Canada in a week, I know I will truly appreciate the nature trail right beside the house I am selling and the fresh air I breathe.

I have not sign a rental contract with the owners yet because I would like my husband to read this blog post first before I do so :P

I must admit, I like making these big life decisions.  This is exciting :)

Inspiration Quote of the Day:

If I do everything I said I would do, I would be a millionaire.  May Chu

Today I was going for a walk with Dobes and telling him how I am now getting more and more clarity as to what I would like to do next in my professional life.  I need a way to make a lot of money fast but I wasn’t sure how.  I don’t have any products to sell yet.  I can offer my services but I don’t think this is something I would like to do because it is not scalable in the long run.  I guess I can offer services in consulting but I know that it is not a long term solution.

I realized that I wanted to be a thought leader.  Someone like Eckhart Tolle or Seth Godin. Not that I have a perfect idea on what I wanted to do right away nor any idea how I am going to be able to generate a lot of income right away but I guess I need to start somewhere.  The universe rewards clarity and that is what I need to spend my time on.

Somehow, I think being a thought leader would require me to open myself for “downloads” of information I can share with people to motivate and inspire them.  Something along these lines…

I think I would like to be speaking to women entrepreneurs or female professionals.  How, I don’t know yet :P

I just want to do a quick few lines to capture how I feel at this very moment:

I am already Rich!

Even though I am having some problems on the work front, I feel very abundant.  Since I feel so abundant, I know that the issues I am dealing with at work will eventually resolve itself and whatever happens will point me to an abundant path where I can make all the money that I need to have the experiences I want to have here.

So, problems on the business front?  No problem!  I am confident the guides and universe will sort it out as long as I feel abundant :)