My Life Purpose?

I have been thinking about the purpose in life and everything I do.  I think I have chosen a life that will allow me to change and grow constantly.  Nothing is ever static and it seems like nothing will ever be static around me.  I suppose that is what makes me so exciting to be around :P

The New Year has started with somewhat of a certain and uncertain note.  Two days ago it seemed like I have hit a major milestone in my life.  I think I might have discovered my purpose in life.  I was reading Steve Pavlina’s blog about how to find my purpose in life and came across the idea that my purpose in life is to make a significant difference to people’s personal and spiritual development.  Steve had suggested that I should write down a list of things I would like to do and see which one actually makes me cry.  I remember coming clean to Dobes about what I REALLY want to do with my career.  He and I were supposed to work on an accounting software project together but I find myself having a lot of ideas floating around but very little action.  Little did I know it was because of my lack of authenticity about what I REALLY wanted to do.  And yes, I was crying when I told Dobes that I believe my purpose in life is to inspire a lot of people. 

I have also been reading a lot about “spiritual” development lately.  One website that really caught my attention was Erin Pavlina’s blog posts.   She blogs about being a psychic and I really enjoy reading her blogs.

I also have a deep desire to have a reading with Erin Pavlina.  But currently I feel guilty to even think about it because I am not making any money.  I cannot possibly ask Dobes to pay for things like that. 

One thing I am starting to realize after this period of financial dependence is that I would really like to be able to be making money too.  I have the desire to make a lot of money that would allow me to freely seek the advice of healers and psychics and learn how to be a healer myself.  It would be nice to be able to look at the “book a reading” section on Erin’s website and be able to book a reading without a blink from myself or Dobes.  Better yet, I wish Dobes wouldn’t even have to know about it.  At this time in my life, I would like to set the intention to make at least $100,000 of my own money by the end of the year.  Money that I could use to pay for my own visa bill without Dobes looking at where I have spent the money.  Although I don’t really have much to hide, but I really would like some privacy and not having to explain myself for all the services I would like to buy for myself.  My intention is to have a reading with Erin within 3 months that would give me great insight and point me in a fulfilling and prosperous direction.