In the summer 2006 I had documented a very interesting experience in which I would like to share in this blog.
I had purchased the audio CD “Ask and It is Given” by Ester Hicks and proceeded to listen to the audio CD. Within 20 minutes of starting the CD I felt very tired all of a sudden – like my eye lids wanted to close but I didn’t really know why. I followed my intuition by taking off my glasses and sitting quietly in my chair with my eyes closed. Then, I had this sudden urge to write for no particular reason, so I reluctantly got up from my chair to grab a notebook and a pen. I now have that original notebook in front of me and I would like to share with you what I wrote:
How do I explain the current state of being I am experiencing?
There is extreme calm and sureness that I cannot describe, it overtakes my physical form / being readily and quickly whenever I am ready.
In this state I feel love and peace. I am free of pain and fear. I recognize that it is unnecessary. My heart feels overwhelmed with joy. I use the word “overwhelmed” not in the way of explaining something that is negative or intolerable, but a sensation of overflowing peace.
Every time I close my eyes I return to this meditative state. Even as I am writing my eyes wishes to close — not out of fatigue but of necessity to stay connected to the way I feel.
My eyes cannot see, for everything is blurry, yet I continue to write without resistance in a relatively straight line. Most of what I want to communicate is how I feel. Sometimes I feel my physical form disappear in feeling and sensation with only the burning of my upper and middle back communicating with me. At this moment I do not need to be consciously aware of what I am writing. I merely have to write.”
At this time I see that my handwriting had changed from my usual neat and tidy printing to some kind of light scribble:
“I am willing to succumb to any thoughts or sensations that are overtaking my beingness. I seek to be aware of my resistance and fully trust the love and support. Questions that may have arisen from the place of fear and doubt are consciously realized and removed. I became aware of the state of nothingness, but not nothingness without the sense of love and peace. There is a sense of trance in the way I feel.
I am writing with my being, not consciously thinking or constructing thought, but merely allowing my vision to cloud over and simply be.
The eyes wishes to close again and my pen continues to move. I am resisting the urge to keep my eyes closed.
I feel energy flowing through me, but specifically in my heart. What does that mean? What is the purpose of keeping me in this state? Why did I feel the urge to write, to scribble? What is my purpose here?
Trust that you are loved, be not blinded by materialism, you will be well taken care of. You will have anything you need with much to spare. Live joyously, your purpose is to show your being to others by showing them what is possible.
Show by example, each and every moment by living in the state of high vibration.
What is this great thing/ feeling that is happening to me?
There is no forever, there is only now. Focus on being — that is what you are meant to do.
While I am copying my handwriting into text form on this blog post, I started to feel the same tired feeling on my eyelids again! I ignored that feeling this time because I really wanted to finish writing this post. I must say I am in awe of what I wrote. I really didn’t think I was this wise :P
I had included two paragraphs in bold because I noticed that it was being written in third person and not first person, which I thought was a bit odd. Was I talking to myself or something? Or was I talking to someone else?
Maybe one day, who ever was visiting with me will visit again…
Here is my experience in automatic writing!
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/automatic-writing-experiences-when-spirits-write.html
i don’t have a website or anything, im sorry if my comment is not on your experience, i just have a question. my friend and i were using my ouija board and asked the spirit to blow out the candle, the candle started to flicker but not go out. so i picked up a pen and some paper and started writing circles. i never wrote words exactly but the writing became darker and became up and down scribbles. i didn’t know if that was me or not so i stopped. when i stopped it felt like somebody turned the heat on, my hands and head especially got really really hot and tingly and my felt like pressure was welling up in it all of a sudden and i started to black out so i layed down for a minute. that happened just a few minutes ago and im starting to cool down now but my hands are still a little numb and tingly. im not sure what to make of this, but my friend and i were both a little freaked out. if you could tell me something of this experience please do.
Hi ! Its wonderful to know that there are other people out there doing the same thing! I have been channelling spirits using automatic writing for about ten years now, I was at a very low ebb in my life but on a mission to discover why and how I could live a more spiritually fulfilling life, then Bam , it all happened. I ended up being guided to write a book ‘Searching for Mooneyes’ as he is my main spirit guide and has been with me since birth and in a previous life.
I love the messages I recieve and have the mediumistic ability to help others.
Please contact me if you get the chance it would be fantastic to connect and exchange ideas, failing that maybe you could visit my website and leave a message!
Love and Blessings
Whitefeather
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Hi Angie,
Thanks for dropping by and sorry for the delayed response, I have been busy having a new baby. I checked out your website, how is your books sales going? Ever thought of just making an eBook and selling it online yourself? Cheers, May
Hi Ariel,
Sorry for the delayed response, I have been away having a baby. This sounded like a scary situation. I recommend finding some answers on ErinPavlina.com. I read her blog often and she always have nice tips on how to deal with situations like yours. I have had one interesting experience that is similar. One time I wanted to move my limbs and I couldn’t for 45 minutes! I am not sure what happened either. My father asked an intuitive friend of his and his friend said that it was nothing to worry about. Maybe you can learn how to meditate and use white light to protect yourself. Just sit there, breathe calmly and imagine yourself being surrounded by a bubble of white light that repels all darkness. If I knew about hypnosis, I may go and get a session to find out from my subconscious what happened…
My situation started in July 2010. I had lost a close friend of mine on my birthday, April 28th in 2010. Ron was not the most pleasant person in the world, but I knew his good and loving side. I loved him despite all the pain he put me through. When he passed I had conflicting emotions of…good riddance but I hope he is ok (meaning, I hope he is not in hell).
One day, several months after Ronnies death, I was sitting at my kitchen table writing out a supermarket list, when my handwriting got very jittery and uncontrolable. The words ” Ame, Im ok,” was written out very clearly. He told me it was Ron and he was ok. He commented on what I was wearing and the clincher was when he told me a black man was at my door and I should call him later, seconds before the doorbell rang and it was my son in law who is black. Then I knew I was talking to Ronnie. I still do my automatic writing to this day. I have accepted it, though it flipped me out at first. I have been through many, many entities and have been told many things. Much of it is nonsense. It seems there are good guys and bad guys in the spirit realm as there are here on earth. Sometimes I still question my sanity.
I have presently been told by the spirits, to stop writing. It seems I have traveled to a “bad part of town?” It has become an addiction and they seem to be getting frustrated with me, but in a kind way.
I am trying to stop. My greatest fear is that I will spend eternity with these bad people. I was told this cannot happen, I am a good person. But then why do they insist I wait a month to write and get out of the first realm? I accept what is happening, but I dont understand it and it seems no one has the answers. I have always been a believer in the afterlife but had no proof or wanted it. I was, and still am, scared to death of ghosts. This is obviously understood by the spirits I have been speaking to. As they have said, they are too far away to visit , but I am “protected” from any negative ghostly spirit visits. If what they tell me is true, I am really looking foward to being with my spiritual family. They have shared much with me, but I always want more and Im afraid I have invited rather questionable entities. I havent spoken with Ron in several months. Though occasionally I will get a “dont listen to them” or “put your pen down,” or ” no, no, no” message. Very confusing and a little scarey. I can go on and on about this. My bottom line is that there is no way these response writings are coming from me or my psychie. This is real. I never asked for communication with the afterlife. I didnt think I was capable so I never tried. The thought of it frightened me anyway. But I am very comfortable with this. It almost seems natural to me now. Ive learned Im a very old spirit who always kept in touch with my family. Ive spoken to many psychics about this and they are clearly uniformed. I wish I could learn more without bothering the spirits. I wish I could help people. But it seems I am not conditioned for that. Cayce and others have done it. Why not me? Im told Im not “cold” enough. Grrrrr. I dont know what that means and they wont elaborate. I better stop. I could go on forever on this.
Hi Amy,
Our greatest enemy will always be ourselves. My greatest enemy is myself and I am sure that this is the case with a lot of people. Channeling spirits is a great gift, but when channeling spirits comes at the expense of developing and drawing from your own wisdom, then you may have taken a bit of a detour. Being centered and grounded is the most important step to connecting with the spirit world in my opinion. You have told me a lot about what others have said to you through your writing, but what has your higher self said? Have you been drawing from your own wisdom? Recently I have been trying Bikrams Yoga and found it very helpful in getting out of my own head and becoming more centered. When learning about your own wisdom it is also good to learn to differentiate between your ego and your spirit / higher self. They are quite different. The ego is confused and scared, it experiences uncertainty and pain, the higher self is pure love and freedom. Just a thought. :)